another battering !!

iv probably posted something similar to this in the past but when you get on downswings like this it really makes you wonder what the fuck is going on .

how can i lose too 2/3 outers relentlessly tournament after tournament when the chips go in ?

how can i keep flopping sets and never winning ?

how come i never ever hit my draw ?

how come opponent never misses his draw ?

why does my QQ KK AK shove always run into AA ?

now you read in forums all the time about how its all rigged blah blah blah , obviously im not one of those people but i will defend these posters from time to time as they are clearly going through what i am right now and it really does make you question things when its never ending . im playing in the region of 16 hours a day every single day and this is close to 2 weeks of pure sickness . its putting massive pressure on geoff at western as he is my sponsor and i speak with him every day and its getting to the point where i just dont know what to tell him anymore , thank god he actually watches a lot of my play online and gets to see what is going on . we have had some rough patches in the past and iv always managed to come good and repay the faith , i hope to god this will be the case again as hes the best sponsor i could wish for and i would be pretty upset if we parted company .

im sure there are plenty of players that read this understands what im going through and the pressure a downswing puts you under , its only the fortunate few that have endless bankrolls that can cope with big downswings but unfortunately im not one of them . hopefully i will get the chance to play this out and turn it around and it happens sooner rather than later . my games still solid , im not tilting , but i am getting very depressed about it and just need to see a little light at the end of the tunnel .